Some Days I Want to Give Up

That’s it. I’m just tired. Being a human is exhausting. Getting out of bed every day and doing my best sometimes feels like such a monumental ordeal that I tear up at the thought. The alternative is just as bad. Laying down, accepting my fate, letting sickness overtake me until there is nothing left… itContinue reading “Some Days I Want to Give Up”

Healthy Boundaries

Everyone and everything has their limits. It is a completely natural part of life to experience a threshold after which we are uncomfortable moving forward. It seems strange to think that many of us struggle with properly defining those thresholds and communicating them to other people, but it is an extremely common problem. Yesterday duringContinue reading “Healthy Boundaries”

Filling Your Own Cup

Self-care is not selfish. You cannot serve from an empty vessel. Eleanor Brownn Nearly everyone has heard the phrase “You can’t pour from an empty cup”, but what does that mean to someone living with mental illness? The phrase itself conveys the message that one cannot put energy into helping other people when they doContinue reading “Filling Your Own Cup”

You’re Only As Sick As Your Secrets

Someone gave me that little line of advice once, when I was in a bad spot and unsure of what to do next. I had been struggling significantly, but I didn’t want to tell my loved ones about what I was going through. I hate making others worry about me. If I can handle aContinue reading “You’re Only As Sick As Your Secrets”

The Two Sides of Bipolar

“I went from crying to laughing in, like, two minutes- I’m so bipolar!” “My girlfriend gets crazy mad out of nowhere, I swear she’s bipolar or something.” “Yesterday felt like fall and today it’s snowing… what is with this bipolar weather?” It’s because of seemingly innocuous interactions like these that a lot of people don’tContinue reading “The Two Sides of Bipolar”

Pulling Back the Curtains of Anorexia

Sometimes, in order to understand our problems we need to visit the true roots of our behavior. Our actions are the surface of a stormy sea, and beneath lie the emotions, distortions, and mantras that secretly generate the waves. At times like these I force myself to stop and ask: Why am I doing this?Continue reading “Pulling Back the Curtains of Anorexia”

On Being Yourself and Making Good Choices

Just because you are one thing does not mean you are not another. We are complex beings with a range of thoughts and emotions that can often contradict each other- but that does not mean they are not all equally valid. This the central idea of my favorite type of therapy- DBT, or Dialectical BehavioralContinue reading “On Being Yourself and Making Good Choices”

Control

If the wind will not serve, take to the oars. Latin Proverb Having control over one’s circumstances is a vital part of feeling secure and developing a sense of purpose. When we feel like we have no say in what happens to us, it is easy to succumb to a sense of hopelessness and depression.Continue reading “Control”

What It Is About Eating

My father first explained to me what anorexia was when he spoke of one of his favorite singers, Karen Carpenter, passing away due to complications of the disease in the 80s. The very idea of it baffled me. “She died because she didn’t eat,” my father told me. “Why didn’t she eat?” I asked. “BecauseContinue reading “What It Is About Eating”

Courage, Dear Heart

I spent about three weeks in a residential treatment facility when I was 22 years old. In many ways it was one of the worst things I ever experienced, but in much more important ways it was the best. The first week there was pure agony. I was so miserable, so disoriented, so desperate toContinue reading “Courage, Dear Heart”

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